Friday, August 24, 2012

God knows how to get your attention!

I have been so stressed and sad lately.... Over what you may ask? I have it all, a good husband, healthy kids, stable career,good health, wonderful family And friends, a home. So why have I been acting this way? The answer is easy, I am a spoiled brat. I get obsessed when there is something that I want, I stress and stress and stress until I get what I want or I figure out that I have it let it go.

Let's rewind to may..... Remember my post on "our dream home"? You would think we have closed by now right? Lol that is not the case. If you have ever been through the home buying process you know that its not easy, nothing goes as planned, everything unexpected happens.

Here we are basically In september,and we still have not closed! No fault of our own exactly. We're basically at the PMI ( private mortgage insurance) mercy. They have the final say so, because they are insuring the loan. They basically would have to pay if we default. So I understand it's a big risk for this company especially because many other companies like this have gone out of business.

I am so upset because I just wanted to be in the house before Ava would start school. Well, that's this coming Monday sooooo......:(

Back to the point of this post, I am learning that God has to show us every so often that he is always in control and should be your focus. This has happened to me time and time again. I get a big situation and think that I should do everything in my power to have things my way, losing focus. Knowing that all I have to do is ask for gods help and believe that he will get things done, his will,his time!

I spent my whole summer stressed about this house,I can't get that time back:( its a sad reality. It's my fault though, I forgot to be thankful and to live, life is so precious and I am so blessed! I had no reason to waste my time like this.....



Sunday, August 19, 2012

Back to the basics

With yoga that is. I have been practicing yoga almost daily for a few months now. I started out with the goal of healing my diastasis recti, but as I learned more about yoga I started doing more. I became obsessed with conquering some pretty advanced poses. I can do any beginners pose, almost all intermediate, and even a few advanced poses. But, because I neglected my core to do these cool guru poses my diastasis has gotten worse. Well at least I think so. Initially after about a month of yoga, I could feel the difference in my diastasis. I went from a 4-5 finger split to only 3 fingers :) But the more I played around with being a goru, I neglected my core. Things didn't start to click until i started having mid-lower back pain. Well, its more like I feel like my back is really tense and tight. When I attempt to bend over front or backwards, my back aches like crazy. Now, I am not 100% sure that this pain is a result of my weak core or something else.... but I'd bet money that its because my core is weak.

No worries though, I have decided to challenge myself to completing at least 10 minutes of core yoga every day for 30 days. I initially wanted to do 30 minutes of yoga daily for 30 days, but I have to be realistic. I have been doing yoga almost daily, but at 5-10 minute increments. It is also more important to me to get my core in shape than to conquer poses. I know it takes time to be a yoga guru, so I don't know why I thought I would be one overnight, lol

Anyways, thats all I've got for today. I really hope the slacker in me won't interfere with my challenge.... : Slideshow Extras : Core Power Hour Part 1 Video : Slideshow Extras : Core Power Hour Part 1 Video

Monday, August 6, 2012

Locs and Lazziness

ugghhhh...I have become so lazy when it comes to my hair. you can add "tender headed" to the list two. I don't know if its because my locs have grown and got thicker or if its just laziness. I can't even do my 2 braid braid out anymore. Its just hard to put braids in my thick a$$ hair lol. it also hurts, even when I don't braid tight, I can't wear any kind of style for more than a day because I feel like it "hurts" well I can just feel my hair being pulled and I don't like that feeling.... i don't know what it is. I may as well become a free former, but with over 130 locs that just wouldn't work.

Ok end of vent :)