"baby I'm gone be ya motivation"

The weather has been beautiful!!!!! I have seriously spent hours outside almost everyday that I am off. Between gardening, neighborhood walks, and allow my kids backyard time we have been in heaven. I found my "metal" from doing the mud run last year and it is part of my motivation to get back to running. I really want to do a Disney 5k next year and a few other races in between. Most of all, I just want to enjoy be mobile outside without a vehicle. Lol there is so much peace an relaxation just going for a walk. It is a huge stress reliever for me.
I am not doing the couch25k program this time around. I really just want to go at my own pace.

I discovered the app "mapmyrun" and this has also served as inspiration. I love tracking my progress. Last year I mainly ran at the track near my house but so far this year, I'm doing neighborhood streets. I feel like a hamster at the track lol. The neighborhood is better for me because I'm big on scenery! I have been enjoying looking at people's gardens and landscaping on my adventures. I've also discovered 2 little parks near me.

Anyways my only goal so far is to walk at least 30 minutes/ day for the next couple weeks. After I've done that I will probably move on to jogging.

"knotty, knotty dreadlock"

Lol I had that song and jamaica on my mind while taking these pictures. I want to go back so badly!!!!! Anyways, I usually refer to my hair as " locs" but when in need of a retwist and just rocking messy locs I call them dreads. Hope that doesn't offend anyone. I love that I can appreciate my hair in almost any state now. I don't mind the look of my hair in these pictures. I like the fullness actually. The only reason why I wouldn't truly freeform is because I don't like my fingers ripping through my unlocked new growth. That's annoying lol.

Little Loc update :)

My hair lately.... Its been awhile since I did a hair update. My locs are 9 months old!!! I cant believe it. As you all know, i am lazy when it comes to styling lol. I got a "wild hair up my a$$" a few weeks ago and decided to do loc knots. That was exhausting! It took forever but the results were worth it.

The loc knots lasted for about 2-3 weeks and I ended up enjoying the style more than I thought I would.

Besides loc knots, I also did my signature braid out when I re-twisted my roots last week.

Lastly, today I wanted to try the straight hair look like "curlynugrowth" and "afronique" of youtube have done with their locs. The style defintely has potential, but me being myself couldn't let it set long enough. i took the rollers out after about an 1hr lol. I could see the potential though

Other, than that my hair has been chilling. I don't do much with it, in fact I don't even recall my everyday style lol

Diastasis recti

Early during my pregnancy with my son, I was told I have a small hernia. I was told that it was most likely from my pregnancy with my daughter when my muscles were just stretched to far. I was also told that there was exercise to reduce/repair it, but I couldn't do them until after I delivered.Fast forward to almost 3 years later, I never followed up. I dont really have pain, I mainly have a lot of GI discomfort like nausea, heartburn, and tons of gas. I can sometimes see my stomach take an odd shape and I assume it's gas. I don't feel a bulge ever and I never had any pain. There was one evening a few months ago, where I woke up with gas pains so bad that I couldn't lay down, sit still or even think. I could hardly breathe, I was close to going to the ER, but I took some gas-x and the pain eventually got better and by the next day it was gone. A weeks after that episode, I started having mild chest pain and pain when swallowing. I was convinced I had a hiatal hernia. I had an endoscopy in September 2011 but I can't remember if I had the symptoms before or after. Either way, my endo was normal. Ok now here we are, I have this ugly pouch that is my stomach. I have lost all of my pregnancy weight. I'm literally about 102lbs. But I at times look 3 months pregnant because of this " hernia". I also can get very bloated which makes my stomach so distended that I seriously look 5 months pregnant. I can't lie, it makes me a little insecure at times. I started yoga the other night, concentrating on back and abds, I noticed some of the poses made my little pouch come to life seriously. It's so ugly. My stomach got all wrinkled and literally a pouch forms when i pose..I want a normal stomach, not only for aesthetics, but I am tired of all the annoying gas, nausea,etc. at the same time, I don't want surgery. I figure as along as I don't have actual pain or dysfunction of my bowels/bladder, I dont think it warrants surgery. It's been 3 years just about that I have had this and I haven't had any real problems. I want explore exercises that may help me.

 

I did a search last week and determined that i most likely have diastisi recti. It's when your stomach muscles separate and cause a small hernia. For some, it warrants surgery. I would probably qualify for surgery, but I really don't want to expose myself to the risk of surgery without first trying exercise. I also learned that traditional abdominal exercises can worsen this hernia. I think I will be fine doing any type of exercise because again, I have had is for 3 years and haven't had any problems. I literally have no stomach muscle. It's just mush and it feels vulnerable and disgusting.

 

Anyways, I'm not 100% sure of what I will do to "fix" this, but I we Ted to share a youtuber I found who had the same problem And actually had surgery

http://m.youtube.com/index?desktop_uri=%2F&gl=US#/profile?user=ItsMeMesh

 

 

And finally some pics of my stomach

 

I know, it probably doesn't look that bad to you all. But trust me in person it's evident. Especially if I am distended. I really hope exercises will help me.